Today I turn another year older. I done well this first week as far as my freedom challenges goes, but on the other hand my eating not so well, I been eating oreo's cookies almost everyday for the last week or so, I kind of know why, but its strange because I'm not a big sweets(cookies, cakes, pies, donughts) type person. But I think its because I've seeing chances in myself, like the way I look, the pounds slowly coming off, and maybe its scaring me just a little. I think I'm so used to being a bigger person, that I don't know what to do seeing the changes and realizing I might actually one day make it to my ultimate goal. And also maybe being a little depressed, this is the first year I haven't looked forward to my birthday, I'm not where I pictured my life being and some of that I can change and hopefully will over this next year and somethings I might have to accept some dreams may not ever come true, will be leaving that in Gods hand.
I will be celebrating my birthday with a wonderful homemade dinner cooked by me. Crablegs, corn, potatoes, and maybe some squash and zucchini I picked from my garden. Haven't decided if I'll go get my an angel food cake and strawberries for desert or not yet.
Each day is a new day and you have a fresh start, so today is about making the best choices I can. Letting go of the past and not worrying about tomorrow, easier said than done. I have to remind myself this is journey and there will be bumps in the road, and I'm the one who can choose how to overcome the bump. So I when I get home today I will be hiding them cookies so I won't be eating them, maybe the hubby will happly finish them off and if not then I'll think of something.