Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Another Year Older

Today I turn another year older. I done well this first week as far as my freedom challenges goes, but on the other hand my eating not so well, I been eating oreo's cookies almost everyday for the last week or so, I kind of know why, but its strange because I'm not a big sweets(cookies, cakes, pies, donughts) type person. But I think its because I've seeing chances in myself, like the way I look, the pounds slowly coming off, and maybe its scaring me just a little. I think I'm so used to being a bigger person, that I don't know what to do seeing the changes and realizing I might actually one day make it to my ultimate goal. And also maybe being a little depressed, this is the first year I haven't looked forward to my birthday, I'm not where I pictured my life being and some of that I can change and hopefully will over this next year and somethings I might have to accept some dreams may not ever come true, will be leaving that in Gods hand.

I will be celebrating my birthday with a wonderful homemade dinner cooked by me. Crablegs, corn, potatoes, and maybe some squash and zucchini I picked from my garden. Haven't decided if I'll go get my an angel food cake and strawberries for desert or not yet.

Each day is a new day and you have a fresh start, so today is about making the best choices I can. Letting go of the past and not worrying about tomorrow, easier said than done. I have to remind myself this is journey and there will be bumps in the road, and I'm the one who can choose how to overcome the bump. So I when I get home today I will be hiding them cookies so I won't be eating them, maybe the hubby will happly finish them off and if not then I'll think of something.

4 comments:

Jen said...

Happy Birthday! You made me sit up, sit back and think on your comments around getting scared by seeing the changes. I do that too. I hadn't thought about it much other than beating myself up for back-sliding. Change is scary, even positive change. So, clean slate, throw out those cookies!! Let's get better together! (PS my birthday is right around the corner!! I hear you)

Katie J said...

Happy belated birthday Miranda! I am going through a whirlwind of changes right now so I know what you mean.

Katie J said...

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Sharon said...

Happy Belated Birthday to You!! I visited your blog a while back, but this is the first time I've left a comment. I'm trying to get acquainted with all of my fellow participants in Deb's Freedom Challenge. You have some neat goals and are off to a good start. My week 2 has been a challenge that you'll read about on Monday. Back in one of your earliest posts, you asked for some devotional book ideas. One that has been amazingly meaningful to me is "Bread For The Journey: A Daybook of Wisdom and Faith, by Henri Nouwen. You can read more about that book in my post from 6/15. I'm going to enjoy keeping up with you!!