Wednesday, September 1, 2010

MIA for a month unacceptable

I'm can't believe I haven't blogged for a month that is just unacceptable to me. I get on the computer and read everyone blog, but just haven't felt like posting. I've have so many twist and turns and loop to loops on this journey of life this month. My weight loss has been nuts one week I loss next I gain. I don't understand whats holding me back, but I'm aware of it and will doing plenty of soul searching, praying and listening to figure out whats going on and how to move forward. I've also had lots of family issue, my moms dad who I call Papa has Parkinson disease and things have slowly went down hill this month. My mom and siblings have been taking turns staying with him and my granny to help out. It taking a toll on all of them but especially my mom. She does more than the others. She had a heart bypass in April of 09, and ever since her anxiety levels are off the charts. Her doctor still has not found the right medication for her yet. I keep telling her she needs to she someone besides her general doctor. My and my dad are afraid if somethings don't change she will end up having a nervous breakdown. So my stress from all the family issue is reacting havoc on my weight loss journey, am sure to some extend it is, buts I believe there is more to it.

I know I have PCOS. I have had blood pressure since I was 18 and high cholesterol since I was 23 or 24. I'm at an increased risk for heart disease, its on both sides of my family and an increased risk of diabetics that also runs on both sides of my family and along with being symptoms of PCOS. And one of my greatest desires is to have children. You would think I would be willing to do whatever I had to do to loss the weight so I could decrease my odds of getting one of the disease and to increase the odds of my being able to conceive. Yes it is a stated fact that it is harder to loss weight when you have PCOS, but I think I use that as an excuse sometimes when I don't try hard enough.

So I have decided to join up with Healthy Loser Gal September Success Challenge. My challenge to myself will be to exercise at least 5 days a week. I know I can do this, I've done it before. So I'm off to make me up a workout schedule.

P.S. If anyone knows how to make the tabs for the top of you blog where you can make multiple pages please let me know how. Thanks.


Heidi said...

Thanks for visiting my blog. I was about to send you a message on how to make the tabs, but I see you've figured it out. Easy peasy huh? :)

When I was 20 my grandfather died of Parkinsons AND Alzheimers. Very difficult to watch someone you love to suffer with that. I can imagine the stress you are going through with not only that, but also your Mom's health and your own too. Take care. When my Mom was diagnosed with high cholesterol, high blood pressure and diabetes it was a definite wake up call for me that I needed to make changes or eventually I'd be on the same path.

Blubeari said...

I gave you an award on by blog. :-)

BTW, I have PCOS too. I feel your pain.